This is one of the most unflinching descriptions of depression I have read specially because you refuse to make it neat or easily consumable. I know the cost of the terror of a capable mind repurposing its own intelligence into an argument against survival. I am here as your witness.
Hold on!! Please Hold on! I have been there more times than I care to admit. I can relate to so much of what you wrote I just did have the words to write like you have. I have come to believe it is my mind trying to get me to do something. I know that when I hold on it eases a bit. It might come back but each time it comes back I can remember that it eased before and if I hold on the ease seems to come again. You are loved. I have had to learn that the love I needed from my family wasn’t going to come the way I wanted or felt I needed it. I have learned that I am ok without their love how I would like it. I have learned I don’t need it like I thought. I can accept the way they give it because I am ok with love given in other ways not just how I feel I need it or expect. Loneliness is hard. Please hold on! 🙏❤️🙏
This is one of the most unflinching descriptions of depression I have read specially because you refuse to make it neat or easily consumable. I know the cost of the terror of a capable mind repurposing its own intelligence into an argument against survival. I am here as your witness.
Thank you 🙏🏻
Hold on!! Please Hold on! I have been there more times than I care to admit. I can relate to so much of what you wrote I just did have the words to write like you have. I have come to believe it is my mind trying to get me to do something. I know that when I hold on it eases a bit. It might come back but each time it comes back I can remember that it eased before and if I hold on the ease seems to come again. You are loved. I have had to learn that the love I needed from my family wasn’t going to come the way I wanted or felt I needed it. I have learned that I am ok without their love how I would like it. I have learned I don’t need it like I thought. I can accept the way they give it because I am ok with love given in other ways not just how I feel I need it or expect. Loneliness is hard. Please hold on! 🙏❤️🙏
Thank you 🙏🏻
Each day gets a little bit brighter.